When I had my therapy appointment this is what my therapist said. She called me out on not showing enough emotion when we have session.
I told her thats the anxiety, because it’s hard for me to be emotional in a social/public setting. It always has been. Then days later I will break down because I kept it all in. Its not healthy, I know this thinking about it. But in the moment rational thinking doesn’t happen.
She told me the next time I see her she’s going to push me, and thinking about that, makes me anxious. She basically wants to break that wall down, and I have to in order to heal and move on. Because I have so much shit bottled up that any day I can explode, and I don’t want that to happen, because who knows what would happen?
I know physically I will be fine in my next appointment, but I don’t know how I am going to feel emotionally. I guess we’ll see.