This week in #bpd

Having BPD is such a hard illness, it can literally take over your entire life. It has taken over mine and its pretty bad

This week was a pretty bad one, emotionally. I had 2 break downs, a lot of anger, yelling, suicidal thoughts, you name it I thought it. I haven’t been this low in a long time and it scares me, I really don’t know what to do.

Making youtube videos has become therapeutic for me, I get to talk to a camera about how my days have been, and I don’t have to worry about someone interrupting me to give an opinion. It feels nice.

I’ve also had some headaches, out of the blue. I haven’t had a headache in a while, but today, and last night they’re lingering, and its making me irrationally angry, which makes the headache worse. I dont want to talk to anyone, I just want to be left alone basically.

It’s a hard way to live, and I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I just need this to be taken away from me, sooner rather than later

-Kristen

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Kristen Iness

Mother Wife Living with BPD 'tis all

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